my birthday is in 5 days it’d be cool if i could afford to eat until then (i get paid on that day ☺️) https://paypal.me/ninasimo
literally i’ve had nothing but stale bread these past few days. if even just 5% of my followers sent a dollar i’d have enough to last me a long while, please consider whatever you can spare
it really is sad how unwilling some of the people on this website are to heal from their mental illnesses. i have posted several times therapist approved coping methods & thought processes to help make the pain of depression & mental illness lessen & have been met with backlash, been told i’m “neurotypical,” have been told i don’t understand real mental illness, & so many similar things.
why?
why would you WANT to suffer? is it because you don’t know who you would be without mental illness? is it because you formed an identity around your illness & it’s “who you are” now? do you feel like you can’t be saved?
because the truth is, there’s no one who is too far gone. the you without all the suffering is worth finding.
Seeking love, help & attention to a health complication
Hello Lovelies,
I first want to say my heart is filled with warmth for those who have written me lovely messages and donated to my health complication. It really does mean everything to me. I was originally diagnosed with something called Henoch. After seeing more doctors and getting more blood work done when it was becoming worse and worse. I traveled 3 hours to see a specific doctor whom diagnosed me with dariers disease as well. There are a lot of different medical options like laser surgery, they are all very dangerous. I am not sure what I exactly want to do right now so I have been seeking naturopaths and holistic healings at the moment in California. This whole thing is very painful.
Photos of your diagnosis/contact:
I was going to attach the photos onto here but because many people have messaged me that they will reblog it without the photos because they are a trigger warning/ don’t fit people’s blog type I decided to just have my documents here. The previous posts are still on my page if you are comfortable with seeing graphic images. If you would like to reach out with any questions/concerns my email is: librarose2828@gmail.com (Please be respectful) //// if you would like to mail me a letter, privately dm me and I will send you a mailing. It would mean a lot to me. All my love sincerely, && Thank you ❤️
What the $ goes towards:
The $ goes towards my bills, as you can see one of the many I have added to this post. I have about $3,500 due. My gofundme money is set aside for following up with surgerical procedure If all else fails as well as paying off bills. I have medi-cal which doesn’t take care of much for the type of doctors I would see for something this rare/intense. The money goes towards eating, living, transportation including to therapy, natural medicine/ topicals that have been helping such as Dragon blood oil, tea tree oil, Emu oil, Dr. Sebi cream $25 for 2oz (8oz last me a month), Dr Morse supplements, Argan oil,etc., and taking care of myself overall.
Work issues:
I was fired for telling a guy I had sex with in the past for saying “fuck off” when he had been harassing me and emotionally manipulating/abusing me at work and have had a hard time finding work after. I know someone had commented on the photos on my blog that I should get medical disability for working. Unfortunately this is not something you can be qualified to not work with. But that doesn’t stop bosses and companies to discriminate you for it and not hire you because of the look of it. I have gone to several interviews that I am qualified for based on experience. Therefore, I am working on being my own entrepreneur and painting / writing. If you would like to look at my art pls dm me as I’m working on a website.
Where to donate?:
Every bit helps!!! I love and appreciate every single one of you. Also thank you for taking the time to read all of this. 🌹🌹
“Through a rapist’s eyes. A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interview…ed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:
1] The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun! , braid, or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.
2] The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who’s clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut clothing.
3] They also look for women using their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.
4] The number one place women are abducted from / attacked at is grocery store parking lots.
5] Number two is office parking lots/garages.
6] Number three is public restrooms.
7] The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a second location where they don’t have to worry about getting caught.
8] If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn’t worth it because it will be time-consuming.
9] These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas,or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.
10] Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you’re not worth it.
POINTS THAT WE SHOULD REMEMBER:
1] If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk: can’t believe it is so cold out here, we’re in for a bad winter. Now that you’ve seen their faces and could identify them in a line- up, you lose appeal as a target.
2] If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell Stop or Stay back! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they’d leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are looking for an EASY target.
3] If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yelling I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent.
4] If someone grabs you, you can’t beat them with strength but you can do it by outsmarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm between the elbow and armpit or in the upper inner thigh – HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it really hurts.
5] After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy’s parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you’ll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause him a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he’s out of there.
6] When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.
7] Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don’t dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may feel little silly at the time, but you’d feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.
FINALLY, PLEASE REMEMBER THESE AS WELL ….
1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do it.
2. Learned this from a tourist guide to New Orleans : if a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you…. chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!
3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car: Kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won’t see you but everybody else will. This has saved lives.
4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping,eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc. DON’T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side,put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU CLOSE the DOORS , LEAVE.
5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
a. Be aware: look around your car as someone may be hiding at the passenger side , peek into your car, inside the passenger side floor, and in the back seat. ( DO THIS TOO BEFORE RIDING A TAXI CAB) .
b. If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.
c. Look at the car parked on the driver’s side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)
6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot).
7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN!
8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP IT! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked “for help” into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.
Send this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it and it’s better safe than sorry.
If u have compassion reblog this post. ‘Helping hands are better than Praying Lips’ – give us your helping hand.
REBLOG THIS AND LET EVERY GIRL KNOW AT LEAST PEOPLE WILL KNOW WHATS GOING ON IN THIS WORLD. So please reblog this….Your one reblog can Help to spread this information.
THIS COULD ACTUALLY SAVE A LIFE.”
EVERYONE BOOT THE FUCK OUT OF THIS
This is so fucking unfortunate that we need this
it just makes me angry that women need this.. but we do and if you see this, PLEASE REBLOG. it doesn’t matter if you are a male or a female. by reblogging this, you might save someone’s life.
Don’t scroll past this, it’s so important
nothing to do with what my posts are normally about but this is SO damn important!! don’t scroll past without reading and / or reblogging!
this is fucking important. Idc if your blog is perfect, fucking reblog this. It may save someone.
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sorry if i reblog this everY FIVE MINUTES
Important
No worries if this post doesn’t fit your aesthetic or theme, this is important information. You could save not just a physical woman’s life but you can ALSO prevent things like PTSD that a woman would acquire from an attack if left alive
Dont you dare scroll past this without reblogging im pretty sure you can press two simple buttons to raise awareness
